Ish’s Journey to Life

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ‘judgemental’ towards myself, other people and the world I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create many ‘judgements’ within myself towards myself, others, and the world I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to normalize this behaviour of being ‘judgemental’ I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ myself on every aspect of myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ other people based on the ‘judgements’ I made about myself, thus projecting my ‘judgements’ onto them I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize that participating within ‘judgement, self judgement’ has many consequences in which I am living in different aspects of my life I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize just how much the ‘judgements’ I created towards myself affects me and my life currently  I forgive myself ...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create ‘anxiety’ within myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to think this self created ‘anxiety’ was real, inside of me, all of which was created due to participating within my ‘mind/thoughts’ I forgive myself for accepting and allowing me to not see how much ‘anxiety’ I have created within myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into this ‘feeling’ of ‘anxiety’ in which it ‘feels’ like I almost can’t move or feel hampered in my movement  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘participate’ within ‘anxiety’ and the ‘feeling/emotion’ of ‘anxiety’ to the point it almost feels crippling in certain instances.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this ‘feeling’ of ‘anxiety’ to become a habit/system/pattern/construct, in which I participated in this ‘feeling/emotion’ for years I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be consumed by my ‘an...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘react’ to specific individual ‘thoughts’ that come up inside of me, specific past experiences, memories, interactions, judgements, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself in not realizing that every time I ‘react’ towards these ‘thoughts’ within me, no matter what the ‘thought’ is, I am recreating the same cycle over and over again, in which I will ‘react’ to thoughts if they are specific  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to ‘think’, ‘feel’, that I can allow certain ‘thoughts’, specific ‘thoughts’ in which I end up ‘reacting’ towards them with ‘emotions/feelings’, not realizing , that even if I don’t react to a lot or the majority of the ‘pre programmed thoughts’, the ones I do ‘react’ to, will cause me to create momentum within the ‘reactions’, so ‘thoughts’ i that I may have  stopped having ‘reactions’, towards, I will start ‘reacting’ to those ‘tho...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create ‘resistance’ towards myself and my reality, resistance towards specific ideas, beliefs, thoughts, memories, experiences, desires, fantasies, fears, projections in which I do not want to address, which also hold answers/keys as to why I do what I do, and how I live my life currently as it’s manifested  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see how much ‘resistance exists within me, in al aspects of my life I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize that I created/manifested the resistance that exists within me, in relation to my mind/physical reality, that in turn live out, in my day to day patterns/habits in which this ‘resistance’ shows itself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see this ‘resistance’, that exists within me, has stopped me from doing many things that would have changed my life within/without I forgive myself for accepting and a...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating within my mind in the form of thoughts, feelings, ideas, beliefs, memories, judgements, desires, projections, images, fears, worries, concerns, doubts, and within this participation, becoming overwhelmed to the outflow of so many thoughts in which it causes confusion within me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, that within participation in so many outflows of ‘thoughts’, it can cause things like ‘confusion’ and lack of direction, or to lose faith in yourself as there’s so many ‘thoughts’ coming up at once I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make this ‘feeling’ of ‘confusion’ into a habit/pattern, as I’ve participated within this construct for many years, and it always lead to ‘feelings’ of unsure ness, confusion, lack of direction, not knowing what to do in a moment, losing faith, losing confidence, and not realizing this was all due to ‘mind participation’ and gettin...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to intentionally keep myself deluded and avoid facing myself in relation to writing about specific points within me, doing things that must be done regardless, taking the physical actions necessary in fixing/sorting my life I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid myself and my reality  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a habit/pattern in relation to avoidance/avoiding things that MUST be done I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid myself, people, necessary actions that must be taken, not realizing that it will better my life and all I have to do is push through that ‘resistance’, ‘energetic attachment’ I created in relation to avoidance I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize the many things I’ve ‘avoided’ doing, taking actions for, sorting my life out was from the starting point of ‘fear’, in which it created ‘regret’ for lo...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within ‘thoughts’ of negativity I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating/participating/forming thoughts and attaching ideas, emotions, beliefs, thoughts , memories, experiences, past/future projections, images, desires, fears, worries, concerns, judgements in relation to ‘negativity’ I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this one ‘emotion’ of ‘negativity’ to dictate and rule my life since childhood as I was in/around a very ‘negative’ household and environment I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see out of al the feelings/emotions that exist within me, ‘negativity’ is without a doubt , the one ‘emotion’ I’ve participated the most through out my life, on a consistent basis, non stop, creating everything I possibly could in relation to ‘mind participation’ within ‘negativity’  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ myself for creating/parti...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within positivity in my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for generating ‘emotions’ and ‘feelings’ of positivity within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for beLIEving that participating within ‘positivity’ in my my mind will in some how benefit/help me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not seeing/realizing that participating within positivity in my mind is no different than participating with ‘negativity’ within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘think’, that creating ‘feelings’ of positivity in my mind is better than ‘negativity’, when in reality, they’re one in the same, the starting point is ‘energy’, none of it real, here, in the physical  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for attaching this ‘feeling’ of ‘positivity’ in my mind to thoughts, ideas, beliefs, memories, emotions, feelings, past/future proj...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘feel’ and experience ‘fear’ within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create/participate within ‘fear’ in my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and what I was manifesting within my life within my participating, and creating ‘fears’ within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘fear’ the ‘fears’ that I have already created within my mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs, worries, concerns, memories, experiences, past/future projections, images, comparisons, judgements  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that it was ME that was creating these fears through participation within the mind/energy and not something outside of me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ myself for the ‘fears’ I have already created, manifested, project on to others I forgive myself for accepting ...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participating in the ‘feeling’ of desire I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want  and ‘desire’ things through participation in the mind within energy , in which these desires aren’t logical and many not even possible I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire things outside of myself ‘thinking, ‘feeling’ it will make my life experience more enjoyable I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that a lot of these ‘wants’, ‘desires’ I ‘think’ about are rooted in dishonesty, ego, comparison, fears I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing that if I continue to go into the ‘feeling’ of ‘desire’ and constantly wanting things that I don’t yet have, that it will make my experience, here in the moment go to shit, as my mind is elsewhere, projecting, ‘thinking’, ‘feeling’ I need something to make my experience here, in the moment better I forgive mys...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to energy and participating within energy within my mind in the various forms it exists I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see just how addictive energy is/can be  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become overwhelmed by energy in the mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be aware of all the forms of energy that exists within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for my past participation within energy in the mind  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the energy I created I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the energy I created I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid/suppress the energy I created I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to underestimate the thoughts/patterns/habits I created due to energy participation, in whi...