Ish’s Journey to Life

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within ‘thoughts’ of negativity I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating/participating/forming thoughts and attaching ideas, emotions, beliefs, thoughts , memories, experiences, past/future projections, images, desires, fears, worries, concerns, judgements in relation to ‘negativity’ I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this one ‘emotion’ of ‘negativity’ to dictate and rule my life since childhood as I was in/around a very ‘negative’ household and environment I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see out of al the feelings/emotions that exist within me, ‘negativity’ is without a doubt , the one ‘emotion’ I’ve participated the most through out my life, on a consistent basis, non stop, creating everything I possibly could in relation to ‘mind participation’ within ‘negativity’  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ myself for creating/parti...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within positivity in my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for generating ‘emotions’ and ‘feelings’ of positivity within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for beLIEving that participating within ‘positivity’ in my my mind will in some how benefit/help me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not seeing/realizing that participating within positivity in my mind is no different than participating with ‘negativity’ within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘think’, that creating ‘feelings’ of positivity in my mind is better than ‘negativity’, when in reality, they’re one in the same, the starting point is ‘energy’, none of it real, here, in the physical  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for attaching this ‘feeling’ of ‘positivity’ in my mind to thoughts, ideas, beliefs, memories, emotions, feelings, past/future proj...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘feel’ and experience ‘fear’ within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create/participate within ‘fear’ in my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and what I was manifesting within my life within my participating, and creating ‘fears’ within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘fear’ the ‘fears’ that I have already created within my mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs, worries, concerns, memories, experiences, past/future projections, images, comparisons, judgements  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that it was ME that was creating these fears through participation within the mind/energy and not something outside of me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ myself for the ‘fears’ I have already created, manifested, project on to others I forgive myself for accepting ...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participating in the ‘feeling’ of desire I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want  and ‘desire’ things through participation in the mind within energy , in which these desires aren’t logical and many not even possible I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire things outside of myself ‘thinking, ‘feeling’ it will make my life experience more enjoyable I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that a lot of these ‘wants’, ‘desires’ I ‘think’ about are rooted in dishonesty, ego, comparison, fears I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing that if I continue to go into the ‘feeling’ of ‘desire’ and constantly wanting things that I don’t yet have, that it will make my experience, here in the moment go to shit, as my mind is elsewhere, projecting, ‘thinking’, ‘feeling’ I need something to make my experience here, in the moment better I forgive mys...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to energy and participating within energy within my mind in the various forms it exists I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see just how addictive energy is/can be  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become overwhelmed by energy in the mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be aware of all the forms of energy that exists within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for my past participation within energy in the mind  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the energy I created I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the energy I created I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid/suppress the energy I created I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to underestimate the thoughts/patterns/habits I created due to energy participation, in whi...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate In the emotion of anger I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let myself be consumed by anger towards myself and specific people within my life I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating this anger within me through participation in the mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feed the emotion of anger energy through ‘thinking’ this generating energy and attaching this anger to many ideas, beliefs, memories, experiences, comparisons, blame, fears, desires, projections, people, self, judgements I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize that participating within anger creates an energetic build up within self, that will physically manifest in various ways if not addressed I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame people outside of myself for this anger I have inside of me towards myself, people and the world I forg...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in laziness and living out laziness in different aspects of my life I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see how laziness can cause things like postponement , regret, and wasted time you can’t get back I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck in the pattern/habit of laziness in which it affects how my life currently is now, in which I realize all the missed opportunities I didn’t take action on because I would ‘feel’ lazy in the moment and decide to do it later in which I never ended up doing said thing I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accumulate laziness In which it manifested in areas like work, health, relationships and my thought patterns and the very way I think, which also became lazy I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become consumed by my laziness in which I needed external experiences to snap me out of it and some of those e...