My first blog - Day 1

 In my first blog I will be writing self forgiveness about resistance towards creating a blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist and avoid creating a blog

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to procrastinate in relation to creating a blog and trying to find every reason I could to avoid it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being judged due to what I may write on my blog

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how supportive writing a blog could be as I learned this reading blogs from other desteni members

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what people may think of me in relation to my blog especially family

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that me avoiding creating a blog was from the starting point of fear 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize these blogs may assist someone else going through the exact same process as me 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for not creating a blog and creating thoughts such as ‘ I wasted so much time, I could’ve been on Day so and so’ but I’m just starting out now on Day 1

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘think’ that blogging wouldn’t be effective for me and that I would be able to do this process without it when in reality reading certain blogs from other desteni participants has really opened my eyes in relation to specific points I may be going through in my life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘feel’ I was above blogging when in reality I didn’t want people to judge me or my writings and had I not created this blog, all of my writings would only be available to me and not in any public forum

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘feel’ as if I wasted time due to not creating a blog earlier when in reality the fact that I started I now have the ability to see my commitment levels to this process within the consistent days I build up in relation to my blog and process 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating all these thoughts, feelings, ideas, emotions, beliefs about simply blogging

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create this ‘feeling’ that blogging is hard due to reading the writings of other desteni members when in reality they are in their own process and timeline so comparing my writing to their writing as pointless as some members have been doing this for years and it shows in their writing

I commit myself to write a blog everyday on a point I’m dealing with in relation to my life and process 

I commit myself to be brutally self honest within my blogs when writing about a point

I commit myself to be as consistent as possible within writing blogs and I know there will be days I may not be able to, but I can always pick back up and continue writing on what ever day I can

I commit myself to not get so wrapped up in the ‘Days’ of the blog, as I can only take it day by day

I commit myself to see through this blogging process and not give up when things get tough or look for a way out