Judgement - Day 13

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ‘judgemental’ towards myself, other people and the world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create many ‘judgements’ within myself towards myself, others, and the world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to normalize this behaviour of being ‘judgemental’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ myself on every aspect of myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘judge’ other people based on the ‘judgements’ I made about myself, thus projecting my ‘judgements’ onto them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize that participating within ‘judgement, self judgement’ has many consequences in which I am living in different aspects of my life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize just how much the ‘judgements’ I created towards myself affects me and my life currently 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, that I created these ‘judgements’ towards myself from the starting point of ‘fears, worries, doubts, concerns,  ego, comparison, desire, dishonesty, mind participation, energy’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘think’, ‘feel’ I was just participating within my ‘normal behaviour’ of ‘thinking’ about shit, in which I would be creating/forming these ‘judgements’, and just pretend/move on from them as if they never existed, or that I never created them, when in reality, I participated within these ‘judgements, self judgements’ for so long it has manifested in the consequences of ‘insecurities, being extremely self conscious, ‘feelings’ of inferiority, constant ‘comparison’, a constant struggle within myself in which I beat myself down, within these ‘self judgements’, always from the starting point of ‘feeling’ inferior to others due to specific ‘mind participation’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that these ‘judgements, self judgements’ have had manifested consequences on my life in which I’ve just been living, regarding it to be normal, regarding it to be a ‘part of me’, when in reality I didn’t always have these ‘judgements’ of myself or others within at a certain point in life, I specifically created these ‘judgements’, through ‘mind participation’, in timeframes where I would just ‘think’ about shit, not realizing within this ‘thinking’, I was creating harsh, nasty, extreme, mean ‘judgements’ about myself and others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not seeing how long I’ve been living these ‘judgements’ out in the way I live my life, express myself, how I view myself , others, and the world, which has been much ‘judgement’ in which now I can see how this is extremely detrimental, illogical, ridiculous because all of it was from the starting point of the ‘mind’, and nOne of these ‘judgements’ are in fact true, or real, just because I ‘thought’ about them at some point, and created/formed real specific ‘judgements’ towards myself, but yet here I am, living these specific ‘judgements, self judgements’ about myself as they eventually manifested due to me ‘thinking’ about them long enough and ‘believing’ them to be true

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘beLIEve’ these ‘judgements’ I created about myself, others, and the world to be true, as it’s not, I created/formed them with a limited scope of the mind, honestly not knowing the effects/consequences would manifest and linger on till this day, which affects me and the relationships outside of me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge every aspect about myself, others and the world, I mean literally anything you can judge yourself/others on, I have done that

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within the ‘secret mind’, in which I was creating/forming these ‘judgements’, but would not have the guts to say out loud or to another just based on how ridiculous the shit is, how mean spirited it may have been towards myself/others, and in knowing that, it makes me realize there was absolutely no reason to participate within these ‘feelings, emotions’ of ‘judgement’ forming specific ‘ideas, beliefs’ about myself/others, anything I am not willing to speak about in relation to ‘judgement’ in a moment is dishonest, why would i not speak about these ‘judgements’ ? Because I know I created them from a starting point of dishonesty, ego, fears, comparisons, desires, inferiority/superiority, energy, mind,  

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ‘addicted’ to these ‘feelings, emotions’ of ‘judgement’, as I’ve been participating within it for so long, it’s become a part of me, like an automated system, in which it happens in a split second, and I lose myself within these ‘judgements’ of myself or others, and never have I ever ‘felt’ any better after participating within ‘judgement, self judgement’, it serves no purpose but to feed the ‘ego energy’

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see how I’ve taken on other peoples ‘judgements’, whether it be family, friends, moments from childhood, and lived them out, and ‘believed’ them to be true

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize, that living without ‘judgement’ of self, and others is a much more enjoyable existence, it is not my duty or right to ‘judge’ myself/others so harshly, had I been living here, in breath, in the moment within the principles of equality, these ‘judgements’ would not have been ‘created’, as when you are here, in the moment as breath, ‘judgement’ doesn’t exist, you are focusing/living your life in a practical way, doing what needs to get done, trying to achieve goals, it’s when you go into the ‘mind’ and start looking/viewing yourself, others, the world from the ‘starting point’ of ‘mind’, then your ‘thinking’ will be influenced by all the systems, habits, patterns, constructs, thoughts, feelings, emotions, beliefs, memories, fears, worries, doubts, comparisons, desires, egos, projections, judgements, inferiority/superiority all at once, your ‘view’ on yourself, others and the world will be influenced by all of these ‘mind creations’ simultaneously 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to give myself a break from the constant ‘judgements’ of self, as it has gotten to the point where I physically feel ‘weighed’ down, like there’s extra unnecessary weight on back that I am walking around with, with all the specific ‘judgements’ I created about myself in which I carry around with me as a physically manifested consequence, and these ‘self judgements’ constantly showing themselves depending on the situation/experience/scenario/interactions im having

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to see and realize, that I indeed can let these ‘judgements, self judgements’ go, because I now know the origin, starting point of my ‘creation of judgement’, I can see clearly how everything I ‘judge’ about myself , I judge other people around me for the exact same shit, no matter what the ‘judgement’ is, I can see clearly  that I at some point have ‘judged’ myself for, basically ‘projecting’ my ‘self judgements’ onto others, 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that these ‘judgements’ I created about myself has stopped me from doing many things, stopped me from trying many things, always in a constant ‘state’ of I’m not good enough, or I can’t do that, creating many limitations for myself in which I have lived out

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see and realize that I CAN, live without ‘judgement’, and that my life will become much more enjoyable if I stop this ‘pattern, habit, construct, design’ of ‘judgement’, being in a constant state of ‘judging’ self and others, weighs you down, it takes ‘energy’, effort, ‘mind participation’

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see and realize,  that the only way to let ‘judgement, self judgement’ go is by not participating within ‘energy’, ‘mind participation’, in which you generate specific ‘thoughts, ideas, beliefs, judgements, comparisons, desires’ towards yourself and other people, and if participated within this ‘habit’ for too long, these ‘self judgements’ will start manifesting in your life, the only way to stop ‘judgement’ is by Breath, self forgiveness , self corrective statements, principles of equality, focusing on only what’s real and not going into the ‘mind’ or ‘thinking’ from starting point of the  of ‘mind/energy’ 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that if do indeed let these ‘judgements’ about myself/others go, I will enjoy living more, I will feel lighter within myself, because having much ‘judgements’ within you, is like carrying weight on your back, so as you take these ‘judgements/self judgements’ out of you one by one, you will have a much more enjoyable ‘judgement’ free experience, here in the moment, and not ‘feeling’ like you have to ‘judge’ every and anything, better to just be here, within breath, in the moment not ‘participating within the mind/energy’, in which eventually these ‘judgements’ will come back to bite you in the ass

I commit myself to stop participating within the habit/pattern of ‘judgement’

I commit myself to address/find all the ‘judgements’ that exist within me towards myself, others and the world 

I commit myself to not be ‘addicted’ to the ‘feelings’ of ‘judgement/judging’ self and others

I commit myself to realize that ‘judgement’ is a creation of the ‘mind’ and only ‘judgement’ can exist if you are not here, within breath, from the starting point and context of the physical

I commit myself to sort/fix myself within the ‘judgements’ I’ve created about myself and now live out in my day to day life 

I commit myself to let go of all ‘judgements’ I have created about self, others and the world

I commit myself to  no longer live out these self created ‘self judgements’

I commit myself to see in which aspects of my life this ‘judgement’ exist

I commit myself to realize that the only time I go into ‘judgement’, is when I am not here , within breath, from the starting point and context of the physical, and principles of equality 

I commit myself to stop living out other peoples ‘judgements’ of me ‘believing’ them to be true

I commit myself to not ‘fear’ the ‘judgements’ I’ve created about myself

I commit myself to realize that I always have the choice/option to ‘judge’ myself and others, and it’s up to me to go from ‘judgement’ to ‘non judgement’ , and choose to stop participating within that ‘habit, pattern’

I commit myself to realize that the ‘past judgements’ I formed/created will still come up within me to show me what I have created, and that I will now have to walk a process in sorting out all of my ‘past creations’ within, and the ‘self judgements” that have manifested as consequence, to no longer give it ‘attention, energy’, to no longer keep that ‘system, pattern, habit, design’ of ‘judgement’ alive

I commit myself to realize that any of the ‘self judgements’ of myself that I currently live as ‘habit/pattern’, will need investigation/self looking  within, in which I find out why I created these ‘judgements’, how, what experiences lead to it, who, which specific ‘ideas, beliefs’ about myself that cause me to live out/experience this without, and without myself

I commit myself to to realize that I no longer have to live out these ‘self judgements’ as they don’t support me, and they never have, all ‘self judgement’ has caused me to diminish myself and become a lesser version of myself

I commit myself to realize that my specific ‘judgements’ has affected many relationships in my life  in which it created the ‘feeling’ of ‘regret’

I commit myself to no longer self sabotage myself with diminishing ‘self judgements’, realizing that these ‘thoughts, judgements’ will come to life if given enough ‘attention, mind participation, energy’, in which you will live out in your day to day life

I commit myself to realize that it is up to me, and only me to not create specific ‘judgements’ in relation to myself that’ll diminish me, minimize me, make me a lesser version of myself, instead I will build new habits/patterns, in which I actually show myself, self support, self care, self love, through my actions, words, deeds, which I have never done from the starting point of self honesty, breath, equality equation and what’s best for all